Transcription of Mrs. Hanlin’s Diary, 1857-1863
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Tuesday Aug. 11th 1857
For a long time I have been without
a notebook, and many things have
passed and been forgotten which
a passing notice would have enabled
me to remember.
With what shall my new book be
filled. Shall peace and prosperity
continued, afford cause for joy and
thanksgiving. Or shall sickness, sorrow
and perhaps even death have to be recor-
ded on its fair pages
Be it my daily care by reading the word
of God and prayer to endeavor to (illegible word; attend)
a childlike spirit that at all times
I may be able in sincerity to say “thy
will be done”
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Last Sabbath morning we attended
Caliege Hall, Mr. McConnel preached from
the words “As in Adam all died even as
in Christ shall all be made alive
1 Cor. 15.22.
At Manchester in the afternoon Mr. Steels
text was “Happy art thou, O Israel: who is
like unto thee, O people loved by the Lord
Deuteronomy 3.3.2
After church we went to Fathers. The
history of Esther became the subject
of conversation. Speaking of woman
having to lead the horse through the city
and proclaim thus shall it be done
to the man whom the king delighteth
to honour. Mr. Hanlin remarked that
he thought Mordecai must have felt
bad because he knew that it was a
thing very disagreeable to the feelings
of Haman to do.
Perhaps few persons would love that
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of this, but the remark was characteristic
of my husband who is most studiously
careful neither to do or say what things
in any way wound the feelings of another
Sab. 16 Sister Mary’s babe has been very
ill indeed I thought she was nigh unto
death, but Mr. Hanlin was down, to day and
she is better perhaps the precious little
creature is going to be spared to us. I have
asked that it might be so if for God’s good
and her own immortal spirit’s good.
I was not at church to day on account of its
health.
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Thursday September 3rd Heard that
Mrs. Gonnly was dead. It completely
unnerved me, what a sad desolation
this will make. How uncertain life
is. 4th out at Mrs. Gonnlys to day,
what a scene of woe was there. I
can scarcely realize that Margaret
Gonnly is dead. How I shall miss
her pleasant smile and cordial
greating. Surely God’s ways are wond-
erful. Who can understand them.
Mrs. McKinley was buried yesterday
Mr. Douglas remarked that she had
fallen as the first leaf in Autumn
and that a brighter leaf had not
fallen from the tree of Grace.
Her only regret was that she had
Not done more for the cause of Christ
This is a common regret with dying
Christians but survivors live on
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Knowing that the same course of
conduct must produce the same results
Do all the good you can
In all the ways you can
To all the people you can
In every place you can
At all the times you can
As long as ever you can;
For our Lord Jesus Christ’s sake.
Aug. 30th Mr. Hanlin went down to see
how Mary’s babe was and I went round
to the Drs Elizabeth having been poorly,
they insisted I should stay for tea. I did
so the Dr was called out I expected
William to act in his place, but was
much disappointed to see the food
handed round and no blessing asked.
Alas! that the son of such parents should
be ashamed in any or every way to
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acknowledge that kind and merciful
Being who has preserved him at
home and abroad on land and sea.
Oh! that his eyes may be opened to see
that a profession will not suffice
without the practice of every known
duty.
September 6th Sabbath Evening 1857
After an illness of three weeks, Mary’s
sweet babe has been removed to her heavenly
home. Gradually she faded away, and
the last two days all we could say was
“she is living” and while the bells were
ringing for evening service on earth
she entered the upper sanctuary where
Sabbaths have no end.
During the last hour she opened her
beautiful large blue eyes several times
and took such earnest looks,
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we thought perhaps she wishes to
remember earthly friends that she
may know us when we meet again
Or was it something else attracted
her attention. Ah yes Bright Angels
had from glory come to bear her to
their happy home, and she sweet babe
in wonder gazed upon their beautious
forms. At length a smile most
beautiful passed over her sweet pale
face gently the eye lids closed a
breath or two and all was over, and
she was borne into the presence of
our loving Savior, who has said
Suffer little Christians to come unto
me and forbid them not for of
such is the kingdom of Heaven.
I folded the precious day to my bosom
while Mr. Steel returned thanks for her
beautiful dismissions. Then I washed
her and put on the slip which a few
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weeks before she had been baptized
in. A white rose bud was laid upon
her breast fit emblem of her opening
beauty. I am thankful that I witnessed
the closing seen of her life. The
remembrance of that sweet smile
will always be joy to me, for it proved
that whatever was needed to make her
perfectly happy in the last trying
moment God the God of love gave it
to her.
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Thursday Nov 26th 1857
Attended Mr. Steels church
took dinner at Fathers then went to
a mass meeting of the seven
Sabbath Schools composing the Associ-
ation, our church was full as it could
be of Parents, Teachers and Children.
It was a grand sight. Mr. Brown
Mr. Reed Mr. Stewart Mr. Douglas and
Mr. Tracy and Mr. Frew addressed
the audience.
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Prayer Meeting.
For some time past our prayer meeting
has been almost deserted and at last dropped
altogether. Six weeks ago Mr. Scott, Samuel
Floyd Mr. Hanlin and 9 of our members of
our Church and Mr. and Mrs. McCrate
not members. Met in the Lecture Room
Three psalms were sung, two Chapters
read and three prayers offered,
we pledged ourselves to invite others
a notice was read from the pulpit
and the next Wednesday Evening
we had 28 present. The increase has
been gradual until this evening
December 23 we had over 90 persons
Behold what God hath wrought!
It is evident there are some praying
people among us and God in
answer to prayer is blessing us. Now
if we are only kept humble, and
the Spirit of prayer more abundantly
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Poured out upon us, we may hope
for better times.
Mr. Young read the 17th chapter of John
and made some beautiful remarks
on the Purity, Peace, and Triumph
of Christs Church. I thought it was a
very suitable subject to bring before
us at this time.
Dec. 25 1857,
Fourteen years of wedded life
oh; how much we have to be thankful
for how many have been cut down
in that time who bid as fair for
life as we did then. My married life
has been very pleasant. I have nothing
to complain of kindness the fruit
of a true husband’s love has been
ever flowing, cheering me when
well comforting me when sick.
May every blessing attend my
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Dear husband in time to come and
may I be enabled daily to prove my
love for him. We spent the day
at fathers. Thanks for a father’s
house to go to. May it long be so.
Called at aunt Dorlands coming home
arrived at home 12 minutes before
9 oclock.
Wednesday 30. Wet evening did not
get to prayer meeting. Mr. Hanlin went
said theier were 28 present Lecture
by Mr. Robinson.
Saturday Jan. 2. 1858
Reed a letter from brother John
Dear Redeemer when shall I hear
that he has given himself to thee.
Oh that this may be the year of his
new birth. Fathers come up pm
Thursday evening and staied until
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this morning. Yesterday morning
he read the 3rd Chap. of Malachi
and sung the first verses of 145
Psalm. This morning he read the
chap. of Acts and sung 130 Psalm
Jan 3rd Rev. Dr. Kerr preached this
Morning from Luke 2nd chap elevetn
and fourteenth verses inclusive.
Professor McClean in afternoon
From Deuteronomy 4.9 Keep thy soul
dilligently. We must hold correct prin-
cipals as the rule of action.
The head and its (blank) the heart
and its affections must both be kept
the body is but the instrument of
the soul therefore the soul is held
responsible at the bar of God for
all the body does, the will being
supreme the Tongue requires to be
kept with special care
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Reasons why we should Keep the
Soul dilligently
1 It is God’s command
2 It is our Souls interest
3 Where ever we are the evil one is there
4 We are apt to forget what God requires
of us unless we do keep our soul very dilligently
Consequences of Neglecting to Keep
the Soul dilligently
1 Conscience will go to sleep
2 We will loose the comforts of grace
3 It is dishonor done to God,
Which perhaps no after life can
repair
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On Wednesday Jan. 6th Mr. Hanlin heard
that Mr. Forney a member of our Church
was sick. enquiring whear he lived he
went to see him, and found him very
low. I felt very anxious to see him
and Mr. Hanlin proposed that I should
accompany him next day. I had to bake
and Iron an unexpected stranger came
for dinner and it was after 3 oclock before
I was ready to go. I was very tired and
a little out of temper however it was
Friday and I could not go on Saturday.
A long walk brought us to the place on
Sandusky Street above Ohio. It was
good for me to go. A sight of that
afflicted one brot me to my right
mind. His disease was in his throat
it was with great difficulty he could swol-
low a little drink and he could only
speak in the lowest whisper. Mr. Hanlin
read the 27 Psalm and prayed with
him.
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I talked with him of his hope and I think
his confidence was all in Christ. After I
had bidden him goodby Mr. Hanlin did
so too then he again held out his hand to
me. He said God bless you I will be very
happy to see you again.
Having no previous acquaintance
with the family I did not like to go on
Sabbath but intended going on Monday
this evening Mr. Hanlin went over to
inquire for him but alas! the black crape
told the sad tale; very sad I feel that I
did not see him again I had been selecting
passages of Scripture which I thought
would comfort his spirit and strengthen
him for the last conflict, but it is over
Oh is he safe. He told me that his heart was
in Heaven, that he was entirely weened
from this world, that he longed to see
Jesus face to face. Oh I do hope that
His desires have been realized.
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Surely my (illegible word; -iatties/ liathes) you have entered on
an eternal day, with the unquiet dream
of (illegible word; Eapthover)- faith last in sight- hope in
fruition – nothing to disturb the spirits
deep everlasting tranquitily “God grant that we may meet at his right
hand to
praise Redeeming love throughout Eternity
Mr. McFierlond preached to day.
Morning text Titus 2. Chap. 11. 12
For the grace of God which bringeth salvation
hath appeared unto all men.
Teaching us that denying ungodliness
and worldly lusts, we should live soberly
righteously, and godly, in this present
world.
Mark 2 Chap 38 Whosoever therefore shall
be ashamed of me and of my words in this
adulterous and sinful generation: of him
also shall the Son of man be ashamed, when
he cometh in the glory of his Father with the
holy Angels.
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Monday 11th How still is the chamber of
death. No one was in it when I went. The
pale cold clay lay in the coffin. No more
attendance needed now. I paused a
moment in solemn awe before I went
to seek the family. Tomorrow he will
be laid in the tomb to rest until the
morning of the Resurrection
sleep in Jesus blessed sleep!
From which none ever wake to weep!
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Thursday Moring text Isaiah 45.7.
I form the light, and create darkness;
I make peace and create evil; I the Lord
do all these things Mr. Cullough.
Evening 2nd Peter 1.10.11 Mr. Gracey
Wherefore the rather brethren, give diligence
to make your calling and election sure;
for if ye do these things, ye shall never fall;
For so an entrance shall be ministered
unto you abundantly into the everlasting
kingdom of our Lord and savior
Jesus Christ.
Saturday, 2 Cor. 7. 10.11
For godly sorrow worketh repentance to
Salvation not to be repented of; but the
sorrow of the world worketh death.
For behold this selfsame thing, that ye
sorrowed after a godly sort, what carefulness
it wrought in you, Yea, what chearing of yourselves
yea, what indignation, yea, what zeal, yea what
revenge!
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Sabbath 17th
Which things the angels desire to look into
Fifteen admitted to the Church twelve of them on
examination. one of them a member of my S.S.
class, Margaret McCrate. I hope this is but the
commencement of Good things to come.
Sab. Evening Heb. 13. 20.21. McCollaugh
Now the God of peace that brought again
from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great
Shepherd of the Sheep, through the blood of the
everlasting covenant.
Make you perfect in every good work to do
his will, working in you that which is well-
pleasing in his light, through Jesus Christ;
to whom be glory forever and ever. Amen.
Monday evening Joshua 24.22. Gracy,
Ye are witnesses against yourselves that ye
have chosen you the Lord, to serve him.
And they said, We are witnesses.
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I received religious instruction based on
the Shorter Catechism, but when the
day of examination came only nine
of us were admitted. Some did not
apply for admission, others were
advised to wait & receive further
instruction. Where Oh Where are all
those persons now who were then so
anxious about their soul Salvation
I remember one man his wife &
sister in law they attended our
meetings from the first. Mr. Blythe
asked him if he thought he deserved
to go to hell on account of his sins.
He thought not. He among others was
Advised to wait another communion
I think his wife did not want to join
without him, so she waited too.
She was confirmed a few weeks after
she died, her grave was the first in the
new burying ground. I hope she was
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After an illness of some months one
of my early friend had gone to dwell in her
heavenly mansion. Yes Isabella Rowland
More little children one only eight days
old are now left without a Mother.
In the Month of February 84 we (crossed out word) &
many others were convinced of sin
by a sermon preached by Mr. Blythe
in the second Presbyterian Church the
church in which we had been born &
raised. The text was Joshua 2.4.15
Choose you this day whom ye will
serve. Well do I remember that solemn
sabbath evening. The closing exercise
of a communion season. Mr. Blythe
requested any who wished to converse
on the subject of Religion to meet with
him the next evening. Mainly new
persons were present. Each one was
conversed with separately. After that
we met once a week for two months.
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Wednesday Sep. 29th 1858
Present at prayer meeting 15 women
10 men, Mr. Frew presided. Read from 31st
verse of (scribble) of Romans & 3 chapter of James
Sang 1 & 2 verses of 42 also 1 & 2 of 63 & 7
& 8 verses of 84 Psalms.
Mr. Floyd made some remarks on the great
Love of God in providing a Saviour for us.
Mr. Tibby spoke of the duty of a walk &
conversation becoming the gospel & urged
us to look into the Bible at all times for
direction. Mr. Frew spoke of the ground
of the Christians hope, of the peace &
comfort we should always feel Knowing
that if God was for us it mattered not
who was against us.
Mr. Tibby closed by remarking that when
our new minister should have come we
must not trust in him, or in anything
he could do but seek earnestly for the Holy
Spirit to make his labour useful to us.
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I was glad to hear this last remark for
we think we are getting a great man &
may forget whear our strength lies.
But it is God alone who can do the great
things which we need before joy can be
brought to us
Jan. 1st, 59.
Still they fall. Another member of
our Church has entered into rest.
Dom. Lambie is no more. A wife of eight
Children left to battle with the world.
What a sad New year day it is to them
Mr. Hanlin helped to bear him to his
long home. A few days since he
performed the same sad office for
Mrs. Frew. This makes five of our
members who have died since
our last communion.
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January 2d 1859 Morning text
Math. 7.13 14 Enter ye in at the thait gate
for wide is the gate & broud is the way that
leadeth to destruction, & many there be who
go in there at; Because strait is the gate,
& narrow is the way, which leadeth unto
life; & few there be that find it.
2 Thessalonians 3. 1st Finally, breathren
pray for us, that the word of the Lord
may have free course & be glorified,
even as it is with you.
Jan. 9 Joel 2d Chap. from the 28 verse
in connection with Acts 2d chap &
4 verse And they were all filled with
the Holy Ghost, & began to speak with
other tongues, as the Spirit gave them
utterance.
Afternoon Heb 21. 7. He that overcometh
shall inherit all things
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Sabbath Feb. 6th. Enjoyed A Most
Precious Communion season with
My Fathers family in Manchester.
I had great need of this refreshing. My
heart was metted by the love of God.
I had no comfort at the last commu-
nion in our own Church. & well I
know the reason. A sad evidence of
how little it takes to discompose my
mind.
Another member of our church
died this morning Mr. Samuel Douglas
He was at church last Sabbath. Took
sick on Tuesday & died this morning.
What is your life, a vapor that
appeareth for a little while & then
vanisheth away.
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Feb. 14th My dear husband when I
think of thy meek & quiet spirit, so unlike
mine I often fear that I am no a
Christian at all. I am so rash, so crass
& so impatient under provocations.
He is quiet, gentle, forbearing. Yesterday
Dom. Hurt his feelings most terribly,
by correcting him before the whole class
in a most improper manner for the
way in which he pronounced the word
“Penalty. Mr. Hanlin pronounced it
as though the e were an a.
Well I was very much vexed & said
what I would do if it were my case
But he took the matter to his heavenly
father & there obtained strength to
overcome his mortification & continue
in the discharge of his duty.
This afternoon we went to see James. (Fiorgg; above James between lines)
He is evidently on his death bed; but
fears no evil.
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March 29th 159
Mr. Hanlin & I attended Mr. Preistly’s
wedding to day at eleven oclock. There
was a very large company. Among them
ten Clergymen Dr. Pressly Dr. Kerr
Mr. Steel Mr. Bradford Mr. Tracy
Mr. Reed Mr. McConnel Mr. Coleman
Mr. Robinson & our Pastor. I would
much rather not have gone but my
husband being invited as an elder
in the Church I felt as though it
was my duty to accompany him.
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wife and mother. Dear Brother John was
one of the members to day.
Another year with all its joys &
sorrows has sped away We have
much to be thankful for in the
year that has now closed. goodness
& Mercy has followed us as a family
in temporal things; & as to Spiritual
things we have been fed with
marrow & with fat. Choice food indeed
is our portion. Blessed be the Master
for giving us such a Shepherd.
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Jan. Seventh Saturday
I have not seen Mary Ann Donovan
since last spring until to day.
She does not look well & the clothes
I got her then are all in rags. I told
her to call on next Tuesday & I would
have a new dress for her.
Attended the sewing society at
Mr. Musgraves.
Jan. 17 went over to Mr. Burts
called at Mr. Nixons coming home
down at Fathers yesterday
Wednesday 18 went with Mrs.
Warden to look for a person
whom we heard to be in want
Her name is Catherine Halbert
She is 79 years of age Lives
alone in a small room upstairs
She has had nothing but a little
meal & lard to live on for the
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last three weeks.
I think if ever I felt truly thankful
for my lot I did to day.
Sabbath Mr. Hanlin & I called to see
Mrs. Halbert. He read & prayed with her.
She has been a widow fifty years.
Jan. 23.
Monday. The washwoman did not
get done to day one tub of Clothes
were left in the first & one in the
second rinse, when I got them up
& the room scrubbed I was pretty
tired. Misses Stephenson & Musgrove
called collecting for the Y L. M. Society.
Tuesday Morning Mrs. Warden here
went to Market 12 oclock when I got
home. J. Ingrim & wife here. Late
getting dinner over. Mrs. Nixon
came before we were done. Only
got my clothes sprinkled.
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Went to Mr. Kirkwood’s prayer
meeting. It was very solemn. I
think the Spirit was there. My
dear husband prayed with great
earnestness. Mr. & Mrs. Wilson
were prayed for.
Wed. 25 It
seems to me I have been on the
drag all week. People coming
prevented me from getting my
work done. It has been very
muddy weather & the dirt inside
and out, has made me feel very
miserable.
Some five or six weeks ago
a young man named Greenewalt
being very sick requested the
prayers of our Congregation. Mr.
Prestly & Mr. Hanlin went to see
him that evening & they have
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visited him frequently since,
every morning & evening he was
made the subject of a Prayer at
our family altar. we felt deeply
interested in him. Mr. Hanlin
talked & prayed with him as a
dying person. He recovered so far
that he was able to sit up & walk
about. How glad I was. I thought
he was going to be spared for
usefulness. Alas yesterday
as I passed the black crape &
white ribon told the tale. He
became suddenly worse & has
passed the bourn whence none
return not having numbered
his first score. Feb 8th 1860
Tuesday Jan. 31 very cold & snowing
prayer meeting at Mrs. Lamby’s in
Birmingham. Mr. Hanlin & Willie went,
Sister Lizzie was here & I staid at home.
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Feb. 3 Called on Mrs. Nixon Mrs.
McCreeght Mr. Donavans family &
Old Mrs. Habbert. I asked her if she
had any money to get what she
needed O yes said she I have 3 cents
yet.
Sat. 4th attended the young girls
sewing s. at Mr. Nelsons.
Tuesday Evening Attended Prayer
meeting at Mr. McKelvys.
Thursday went with Mrs. Parker to see
Mrs. McKenna. She has been sick
since the 25th of last April. She is a
widow & poor. one of her boys twelve
years of age does the work,
Oh for more love to God for his
goodness. O my soul be stirred up
to magnify & bless his holy name.
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Mr. Hanlin went over to Mr. Carsons
to Prayer meeting It is a very stormy
evening.
Tuesday 14th went again to
see Mrs. McKenna. Got money from
our Church Treasurer & bought a suit
of Clothes & a pair of shoes for her
youngest boy. Called again to see
Mrs. Cassiday. Her babe died after I left
on Thursday. They are very poor
Attended prayer meeting at Mr. Hill’s
Mr. Hanlin conducted the meeting
Wed. 15 very few at Lecture to night
the streets are in very bad order.
on last Sabbath Mr. Preistly Stated
that a Collored Man, who had bought
the freedom of himself, his wife and
one Child and who wished to raise
funds to purchase another child,
had asked permission to stand in
the vestibule & receive whatever
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aid our people would give him.
Alas. Alas that one human being Should
have to make such a request of another.
March 26 our communion was held
yesterday, & our Pastor will leave home
tomorrow for New Orleans.
Went to see Mrs. Warden, called at Mr.
McCreigth & Mr. Donovon’s Mary Ann
has left the ward School & commenced
going to the Sisters. She has also quit
coming to our Sabbath School. I
wonder if all my labour is going
to be lost in this case.
Sat. March 31 The death of a person
I loved is noticed in this mornings
paper. Mrs. Hannah Scott,
Sister Annie & Maggie Rolands were
here for supper
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Sab. Ap. 1st This has been a very wet day
I did not go to Church for I have been
very unwel all week.
Mon. 2 Issac Graham came to learn
his trade.
Wed. another very wet day. went down
to see Mary’s Children they are getting
better. Mr. Brewer, & Mrs. Stevenson
were burried to day. Mr. Hanlin &
Willie are gone to prayer meeting.
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Friday Ap 13 Mr. Hanlin came home
very sick I went for medicen I then
attended Mrs. Hamiltons funeral. She
died on Tuesday last without a moments
warning
21st
Mr. Hanlin has been very sick for a
week. we have had a great many calls
during that time. our Pastor returned
yesterday & came up to day. Sister Mary
& James were here at the same time
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Thursday May 17th called at Mrs. Halberts
She is very feeble. went up to Mrs. McKennas
she is able to go about on two crutches
now thankful I should be that I am
not doing the same if My father had
consented to have my foot cut off
Such would have been the case; but
our Father in Heaven who sees the end from
the beginning ordered it otherwise.
21 At Mr. Neepers funeral. Called to
see my dear friend Mrs. Rowly. Her
health is very poor & her continuance
in this world very uncertain. She is calm
& resigned to the will of God let the
result be what it may.
called on Mrs. McAdams. Mrs. Nelson
& Mrs. Warden.
23rd Attended prayer Meeting only
40 present Mr. Frew at my husband’s
request conducted the exercises.
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Thursday spent an hour or two
very pleasantly at Father’s. Sister
Mary vexes me by her impatience with
her children.
(illegible word) fifth have been very unwell since
May 26. Sometimes I think I will never be
well again. I feel so very weak. The thought
does not trouble me. There are some reasons
why I should like to live a few years but
if God wills it otherwise I shall not complain.
Yesterday I went down to Father’s. He and
Mother, Mary & I went up to “the Court of
Peace” It was Luther’s Birth day, & all we
could do was to visit his quiet resting place
and rejoice that he is beyond the reach
of temptation.
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prepared for admission to the Church a love
of him I never knew any thing but this.
June 23rd. dear Bella beautiful even
in death. when last I talked with her
she thought it likely that she would not
survive her confinement
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July fourth at home until 3 Oclock
Then went with Mr. Hanlin to Father (then)
Came home. got supper & went to
prayer meeting only 25 persons
present Wm. spent the day with the
Manchester Fially came home at 4 oclock
cleaned himself & went with some girls
to Lawrenceville & did not come home
till nearly midnight. I was not pleased
at him for being absent from prayer
meeting.
July 15th Communion Sabbath Mr. Wilson
from Racoon assistid. I have had
much soul trouble for some time past,
deeply oppressed by a sense of sin almost
ready to despare. Talked to Mr. Hanlin
He said if you were on some high
& narrow place, & knew if you fell
you would be killed, would you not hold
on with all your might.” O for
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strength to hold on to Jesus & for faith to
feel that the Everlasting arms are
around & holding me.
July 18 Lecture on 67 Psm. First a
prayer for mercy. Most earnestly I
offer it Lord have mercy on me &
pity me. A glorious prophecy the
the Earth shall be filed lipping full of
the Knowledge of the Lord. Oh how I
would love to live in that time. No
worldlyness, no selfishness no vain
(co)rlish conversation; but all hearts
filled with the love of God. Every
one speaking the praise of God &
all doing the work of God. Lord hasten
it in its time.
I (illegible word) too tired to go to prayer meeting
now. I will miss a event that I enjoy
much indeed. I was ready to go to
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Father’s yesterday when Maria Nixon
came then Mrs. Warden. I was uneasy
knowing I would not get this week
if not to day so I went down from
market. Then I had to Iron & bake
cakes & pies for the S.S. picnic
tomorrow, beside this a great
quantity of soot fell down the kitchen
chimney so I had to shake the
carpet & scrub the floor. So I am
this night very very tired
26 Attended picnic pleasant day large
company. Cars did not come for us
till seven in evening. Commenced
raining just when we landed. Went
over to Mr. Scott’s office & staid till
after 8 Oclock then we started home
We came to the corner of High & Ivy
then I came on home & Mr. Hanlin
took aggie Nixon home. we were
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both very tired so we attended to worship
& went to bed.
Monday 30 down at home My dear father
is not well he is weak & low spirited.
Aug 1st Lec. On 69 Psm. These Lectures
often seem to direct my case just
as if they were prepared for me alone.
My soul feels her need to offer this
prayer. Save me O God. I know I have
enemies but that troubles me very little
the Spiritual foes are my dread. dear
Lord deliver me form their fearful
attacks such as I have experienced
in times past. I acknowledge my sins;
any follies oh pardon them all for
Jesus sake “Then I restored that I took
not away” is a description of the satisfaction
He made to God for our sins by his blood,
God’s glory. Man’s honor peace & happiness
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He took not away. Yet by the merit
of His death He restored them.
Thursday Aug. 2d, 60 Mr. Algea died today
in his 58th year He was one of our first
neighbours on this hill. He did not enjoy
much comfort in his death bed; still
expressing the wish for more evidence
of acceptance. I think this is a thing to
be sought after every day. and no
rest taken until we know that God
For Christ’s sake has accepted us.
Aug. 10 After a week’s absence at
Cousin Samuels Father and Mother are
home again Father seems better
& is more cheerful.
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Aug 15, 60 Lecture on 70th Psalm. Another
prayer who does not need to offer it?
Mr. P. remarked that wherever the word
Lord was printed in Roman letters it
ment Jehovah. The one word to which
no adjective can be added to describe its
meaning. Jehovah the Self Existent Eternal
God.
16. Mrs. McCallough has been sick for
a long time. Mr. H & I have been to see
her different times this evening we went
together. we had some pleasant conversation
& worshiped God with her family
September fifth Sister Mary has another
son. I have been very anxious about her
& feel very thankful that she is over
over her suffering & she and the
child boath so well. Dear Father
let this little ones name be written
in the Lambs Book of Life.
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Oct 4th, 60 This is our dear little
Johny’s Birth day. he is two years old
& I know not another so fine a boy
of the same age. I wish I could go
go down to day; but I am very tired
and have a good deal to do yet,
Anna & James Harper were here this
day week. he is a clever child, but
needs much training. Oh my Father
make Mary faithful to her solemn
precious trust in the care of her children
Another of my acquaintances has closed
her earthly career Mrs. Margaret Mireer
is no more. Six years ago her husband
died of cholera after his death her fifth
child was born and after it had been
a sweet little prattler it was taken
away. Now she too has been taken home
at the early age of thirty five. &
four orphans are left. May the Lord
be their helper.
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Sabbath Oct 14th /60 A disappointment
my cousin Samuel brought in his oldest
little girl & left her with me that she
might get to school this winter. She is
the best little creature that I ever knew
it is impossible not to love her. Well
this night 3 weeks our Pastor preached
a sermon on the ministration of
Angels, from Heb. 1.14 the they
not all ministering Spirits sent
forth to minister for them who shall
be heirs of salvation. To night he
was to preach another sermon on
the same Subject. I was very anxious
to hear it but Anna was sleepy &
had to go to bed, I could not think
of leaving her alone so I had to
deny myself & stay at home.
May those who hear it be benefited.
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Bless the Lord, o my soul; & all
that is within me, bless his holy name.
And so I might go on for great to me
has been his loving kindness, Life con-
tinued. Health to perform the Labor of
of my station & enjoy the blessings of
his providence & better still the means
of grace and ability to attend there or.
And friends, dear, kind. friends
Alas none but the friendless can
tell the value of friends.
To day Mr. Hanlin & I were at Mrs.
McColloughs. She is not any better &
Mary is worse. I could scarcely
contain myself till I got out. Soon
to all appearance my dear Mary will
be numbered with my other faded
flowers. O; that she may have the
necessary preparation for meeting
God in peace.
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Tuesday 23rd Mr. Hanlin & I were
over at Mrs. McCollough conversed a while
Attended to worship & came home it
is a wet evening.
Wed. down at home Rev. Joseph
Thyne having preached for them on
Sab. Came down this evening to attend
prayer meeting He was at Father’s
for supper I was please with him.
Thursday our pastor preached
this morning form 2 Cor. 6 chap 17, 18
Mr. Andrews in evening from Rev.
3 chap. 20 verse. Cousin Samuel
attended church with us.
Oct. 26 Friday Mr. Hanlin & I attended
Mrs. Shanon’s funeral. She was in her
83rd year.
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November 29th 60, Thanksgiving day
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Dec. 9th Lords day. My Father has laid
His hand on me & I have been very
sick since yesterday week.
Much kindness has been shown to me
by many people. Sister Lizzie was here
all day & night on Sabbath, also Tuesday
& Thursday nights. Mother was here all
day Monday. Mrs. Warden was here almost
every day. Cousin Samuel was in &
he came over to see me. Father & Aunt
Borland came, altho I sent them
word not to do it, for the weather
was cold and they are old people
now. My dear Pastor was here and
prayed with me. Mrs. Love Mrs. McGregor
Mrs. McCreight. Mr. & E Taggert, Maggie
Susan and Mary McCreight, Annie Bell
and Martha Shepherd Mrs. Dale &
Mrs. Church and Eliza Wilson were
all here most of them two or three
times & all did what ever they could
for me. My dear Willie’s care &
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kindness was constant. Maria
and Aggie Nixon I must not forget
Mrs. Pearson offered to go errands
or any thing she could do.
As for my soul It was in perfect
peace. The Spirit brought these
words to remembrance.. To him
that worketh not, but believeth
on him that justifieth the ung-
odly, his faith is counted for
righteousness. I believe that this
is my character. I know I am
nothing can do nothing to merit
the favor of God. Therefore I have
taken Salvation as a free gift,
and expect to be save only for
the righteousness sake of Jesus
Christ. How much these two words
express! The Anointed of God. He
shall save his people form their
sins.
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Feb 4th Monday Evening attended
Exhibition at University. I enjoyed it
very much. Wm. acquitted himself well
we were home a little after nine.
7 & 8 two terrible cold days,
14th Anniversary of Aunt Borlands
Wedding. Cousin Samuel McAllester
was married to day. To Miss Lizzie
Porter. Sister Martha & Elizabeth
went out; also Thomas Harper,
Maggie McCreight went to the
country to day expecting to get a
school.
20 Mrs. Warden was here for supper
& went with us to Prayer meeting.
Monday 25 down at Fathers
All well except Mary’s babe He was
fretful an unusual thing for him,
Mrs. Margaret Anderson was
burried to day. Father & Mother
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were at the funeral
Mr. Hanlin went up to Mrs. Parkers
this evening & I am alone.
Took dinner at Aunt Borland’s
to day.
March 11th down at Fathers. After
Supper Mr. H. & I went over to Mr. Nixons
She gave me one dollar for Missionary
purpases last year she gave me two.
His salary is 1000 a year. The two oldest
boys more than support themselves so
his salary goes to himself his wife & Niece
children. They live in an elegant house
of their own. & have money past them. I
felt angry out of all their abundance
100. how low an estimate of Salvation & all
its blessings. Mrs. Lewis a widow & dependant on
her son gave me a dollar. Miss Shaw a sewing
girl 50c so it goes them that have least
give most. 12th attended the Meeting paid
over what I had collected.
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Tuesday
March 19 after an illness of about two weeks
Nattie Prestley has been taken home to God.
He died on Sabbath Morning at two Oclock. There
was prayer meeting at the Parsonage on Sabbath
Evening. & funeral services on Monday afternoon
at five Oclock David Kerr read the 103 Psm.
& prayed a portion of it was then sung. John Brown
& Dr. Cooper spoke beautifully Mr. Gracy prayed
& David pronounced the blessing. The body was
brought down and placed in the hall
before the exercises commenced, that all might
see the little form which so lately moved among
us. His was just like our dear Prestley he
wishes to gratify every one.
Mr. Hanlin & Wm. & three or four others went after
supper & staid until after 1 oclock they then
carried the coffin round to the cars the & he started
to Cincinnati accompanied by his other two
Children to bury Nattie beside his mother.
the dear child gave abundant evidence that
he understood the plan of salvation & that he
was prepared for a brighter & better home.
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April 7th 61 New Neighbors. We rented
one of our houses to a family we were
not acquainted with. we were very anxious
lest they should not be church goers. This
morning I was in the yard before six oclock
and heard the voice of earnest prayer in
their house. I came in & told My husband
Now Sarah said he is it possible of
course all our fears are at an end.
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July 14th Sick again
This is the third time I have been unwell
this summer. This is our preparation Sabbath
& it is a sad loss not to get to Church.
Sister Mary was here on Thursday. She had
John & George with her they are very sweet
children. I hope they will be spared for
usefulness. It was expect that a battle would
be fought to day in which the regiment brother
John is in would be engaged this kept me
anxious all day. I know that God is able to take
care of him on the field or in the camp but
Still I cannot help fearing the worst.
Wm. & Annie were examined today by the
county Superintendant
July 26, Sister Annie & James Harper
were here for tea. He is a dear affection
ate child. I do hope he will be
spared for usefulness.
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Death of Gertrude.
Once I had three little daughters;
But the fairest of the three
Was the sweetest of the number,
And the favorite with me.
What a joy upon returning;
Each succeeding eventide,
To watch three pair of little feet
Come bounding to my side.
Then a while but two would greet me;
Yet their greeting saddened me.
For the form that still was missing
Was the fairest of the three
Now a sudden, holier welcome
Every coming evening brings
Two “flying” as they used to do,
And one “on spirit wings”.
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Though two forms are only present,
And two voices seem to be,
There’s another voice angelic,
Ever whispering to me.
Died Monday Morning July 8th /64
Laura .G. Hawkins aged 2 years
& eleven months
Died June 22nd Mrs. Mary Lindsay
an acquaintance of ours a little older
than myself. She was Mr. Lindsays’
fourth wife. The mother of one son
& a daughter.
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May 6th went down to Father’s. Took din-
ner at Fam’s came up in time to attend prayer
meeting in our church at four o’clock Mr. Brown
presided 14 men 6 women present. Prayers
on a very low key. Very wet afternoon. Alas
for our poor soldiers deprived of all home
comforts in this inclement weather
August Seventh The two Regiments
that went from here 3 months ago
have returned. & Alas! such drinking
and swearing. Our City is perfectly
polluted. Two of them were in the
Car on Monday when I was going
down to Fathers. One of them used no
bad words the other prefaced & con-
cluded all he said with awful
oaths. Alas! alas! our poor country
I fear there will be much blood spilled
before our sins will be washed away
North & South East & West we are all
verily guilty in his sight.
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August 11th /61. On Saturday morning
about 2 Oclock I toot
and was very unwell for some hours,
added to this I have a boil on my
right leg just at the knee which has
been very painful for several days.
It hurts very much when I walk, & walk
I must, for my family duities must be
attended to. Yesterday I had four shirts
& three white vests to Iron my head
ached very much & it was indeed a
great task but I got through.
I was not able to go to Church to day
This is four Sabbaths I have lost this
summer by ill health. Father & Mother
were at our Church & came up for
dinner. I was very glad to see them
for I had not been down last week.
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Aug 17, 61 Heard from brother John
of the fifth of this month. He recd.
a severe wound in the corner of his
left eye by the accidental discharge
of a rifle. One of the Buck Shot
remains in his head. He did not
expect to live an hour, but blessed
be God he is living still & says he is
doing well.
Aug. 25 Our Pastor being away
we went over to Dr. Swifts Church
Sep. 8th attended church to day the
very lame having a sore boil on
my left leg.
12th a letter from John dated
Sep. 5th one month after being wounded
The pupil of his eye is elongated.
He has been offered his discharge but
would not accept it.
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Sep 12 William has been employed
seven weeks by Mr. Armstrong. but
they do not need him any longer. There
is no likelihood of him getting emplo-
yment at present. So Mr. Hanlin says
we must try to send him back to
College.
Sep. 18 Mr. Watson has employed Mr. H.
to build a small house. Altho he
has to take it at a very low rate
yet he thinks by working hard
& planning carefully that he can
make a living & send Wm. to school
this year.
Sep. 21st for a week past I have
been very busy putting Wills clothes
in the best order I could for going away
my last job was a sleeping shirt I had
the wristbands to put on & the sleeves
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to put in after 9 Oclock last night.
Mr. H. & Will went to bed, I waked
them at a qr. past 11. Mr. Hanlin
went with him to the cars, & at
half past twelve the dear Child
with a light & happy heart was
on his way to Wilmington. Will
God be pleased to bless & protect
our dear boy.
Eliza Park died this evening in her
17th year. Mr. Jones dry goods
merchant with whom I have delt
for some years died on Tuesday
the 18th leaving a wife & 3 children
He was only sick from Saturday.
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The beautiful fall weather is over
Thanksgiving is past & winter has
come. I did my first cooking in the
new kitchen on that day. on Friday
we had a grate set in our room &
one in the little kitchen or I suppose
the back room we must call it now
the weather was wet & muddy and
dear oh what a house I had from
top to bottom. I have got things
cleaned up now however & we are
very comfortable.
Dec. 8th 1861 William came
home this morning, attended to
family worship for the first time
to night,
Dec. 25 Spent the day at
Father’s there was a fire in Manchester
last night, after it was over the
chimney fell and killed Mr. Robert
Cougley in his own yard,
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Mother & annie had a very buisey
day Annie stuffed the turkies &
done all in her power for to
entertain us dear dear Annie,
Mr. Hanlin & I came home early
Will staid & he & Annie went
out to spend the evening.
Dec. 30 Mr. Armstrong offered
William a Situation which
he accepted because we found it
impossible to meet his college
expences any longer
New years.. Spent the evening
at Dr. Dakes. Wm. started at
midnight to Westminster
To bring home his trunk.
I sat up until he left to make
him a cup of coffee.
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Sabbath Aug 30th 1863. The opening
services in Rev. Andrews Church at
Lawrenceville are being held to day, Our
Pastor has to preach to night so we
have no service this afternoon.
Our text this morning was Luke 1st Chap
11. 78 79 verses, To give knowledge of
Salvation unto his people, by the remission
of their sins
Through the tender mercy of our God;
whereby the dayspring from on high
hath visited us.
To give light to them that sit in
darkness & in the shadow of death,
to guide our feet onto the way of peace
Willie left home on last Friday
to be bookkeeper in the St Charles
Hotel. Kept by Col. Allabach
in Washignton. His move was
made much against my will
& his being there will cause me much
anxiety.
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Alas! Alas! how shall I make this sad
entrie Sore pained within me is my heart
Death terrors on me fall, on me comes
trembling fear & dread o’erwhelm my soul
withall
On Monday Feb, 10th Sister Annie came
up to see us. I was washing, when I saw
her coming the gate I wiped my hand
& just as she opened the door I put
my arm round her neck & kissed
her, Said I what did bring you such
a cold day. O, I just wanted to come,
Said She, I told her I would rather have
her down stairs to talk to me but she would
be more comfortable up in the back room
till I would get done. So after sitting
a little bit she went up and hemed
a linen pockethandkerchief.
after dinner Mrs. Dake & Mrs. Church
came up. Now said Annie you
keep them company & I will get the
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supper, so in a very short time she
stewed peaches, baked corn cakes &
done every thing as nice as hands could
do it. The next day she counted a colle-
ction taken up in the Church for the Sab-
bath School & put it up for me to take
to Mr. Frew. I had made out the report
of the missionary money collected in
the School during the year amounting
to something over fifty dollars dud
Annie went over it all for me for
fear there should be any mistakes
In the afternoon I went down with
her to the cars, oh how little I thought
that my precious Sister had made us
her last visit, that she had left our
house for the last time. that she
was then entering the cars for the
last time. Have mercy upon me
have mercy on me oh my father;
Glorify God in the fires says the
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Spirit
and then he points me to the last
verse of the first Chapter of Job.
Time passes but my grief was not. Oh!
how much easier it would be to die than
live with such an acheing heart, on
Monday I was working in the garden,
I had to lie down after I quit, I was tired
but that was not it, the load lay at my
heart. The thought of all thoughts
uppermost was that Annie had been
laid in the ground, April 30.
Monday May fifth
Yesterday morning
some of the figures Annie had made
when adding up the S. School money
met my eye. a host of memories
came with them. always so kind
so willing to do any thing for me
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I hurried up stairs & poured out my soul
in prayer and tears. When I came down
we sat down to worship I tried to bear
my part, but broke down on the last
verse of the 35 chap. of Isaiah all I could
do was cover my face with my apron
& fall on my knees. Mr. Hanlin’s
prayer was solemn in word and
manner. I know he feels for me &
prays for me, but oh! nothing nothing
can subdue my sorrow for the loss
of my dear dear Annie.
Mr. Priestly preached from
Rom. 10 chap. 13-15
I went over to visit Dr. Swift’s S.
School in the afternoon. Then went to
Mr. Clark’s Church his text was Math.
22. & 2. ‘They made light of it”
He mentioned many things that
we might make light of & receive
no damage though the things were
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important in themselves
but wo be to those who make light
of the Gospel invitation.
Sister Lizzie was at our Church in
the forenoon & came home with
us for dinner.
May fifth collected 6 dollars for
Missionary Society, got only
fifty cents from two families
where the fathers employment
is worth from 4- to 6 dollars
per day recd. a dollar each
from two widow women. Paid
it over at the Church then called
at Wm. Church’s & Mrs. McColloughs.
I took Annies obituary Notice down
to the office last Wednesday it was
the last sad act I had to perform
for my darling sister. I knew it
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would be in the Preacher to day
I wanted to see it & yet I trembled
& hesitated to open the Paper Sister
Annie’s obituary terrible is she
really dead My Annie oh my
Annie. May 6th 1862
Wed. 7th I took up my Bible to look
for a word of comfort. But the Spirit
pointed to duty. I opened at the 27 chap.
of Numbers, 12 verse where Moses was bidden
to prepare for death. This was no doubt a
severe trial, how many times during the
wearisome journeying of 40 years had he
looked forward to the peace & rest & happiness
which he would enjoy when he & the
people for whom he had done so much,
from whom he had suffered so much,
whom he had so often save by his
intercession should enter the promised
land! but now when all his fond
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hopes appear just about to be realized
he is bidden prepare to die.
He asks no questions expresses no dissat-
isfaction, entertains no doubts about
the goodness & justice of God. but
entirely forgetful of himself he
immediately requests the Lord to
appoint another leader for his
people that they be not as sheep
without a Shepherd. Wonderful
man! Not a murmer on his own
account. Perfect submission to
the will of God. a desire that his
glory might be advanced & the
good of his people secured.
What a noble pillar in God’s house
was he. What a poor cross fretful
child am I. doing nothing for
my father but hanging round
his (illegible word; hi_ve, hiarce) always begging him
to give me something or do
something for me.
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I do not often dream but Last night I
had a pleasant dream. I thought I wanted
something that was in my bedroom. It
was dark down stairs & I lighted a chip
and took it up in my hand to look
for what I wanted but when I opened
the door of my room it was flooded
with light far exceeding Sunlight
at noon day it was such a light
for purity and brightness as was
never seen in this world.
I interpret it thus. I have been
overwhelmed at times since Annie’s
death with fears about her souls
Salvation. I have searched the scriptures
and prayed earnestly that God would
give me comfort concerning this matter,
one evening coming home from
father’s. this text was brought to my
mind. All that the Gather hath
given to me shall come to me
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and he that cometh to me I will
in no wise cast out. Now if my
dear Sister come she is safe there is
not room to ground the Shadow of
a doubt upon. & what reason have I
to doubt that she did come. Simply
because she had not made a profession
of religion and yet I have I have abundant
evidence that she loved what was
right did what was right and
when I compare her Character with
mine I feel she was my Superior
in many respects. However it is not
in this dark world, nor with the chip
light that I can make, that my soul
is to be satisfied but when I enter that
room above where the light of Eternity
shines then all uncertainty will be
removed & hidden things revealed.
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June 1st text Rev
2nd Psm. 6 verse. Christ a Kind
Nature of his kingdom. Essential
that which he has in common with
the Father & Spirit over all things
2 Meditorial. Extent of Meditorial
the Church. 3 Christs right to possess
this Kingdom. His mode of admin-
istration
Martha Mary & Lizzie & James Harper
at our Church.
June 2 At the Cemetry with Father
Mother Mary Roudy & Eddie,
June 4 Luther would have been
17 years of age to day. This day last
year Mother Mary and I went to the
Cemetery Annie had supper ready
when we went home. To day Annie
lies there beside Luther and myrtle
grows in my garden off her grave,
Surely this acheing heart will not beat much longer.
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June 8 1862
Strangers have preached for us
the last three Sabbaths, to day our
Pastor resumed his labor, Lecture
on 1st chap. John, 6-14
Joshua 7.19 the sin of Achim
Have had a severe cold for 10 days
coughed and spat some blood this
morning. This betokens something.
9th down at home. Glad I went
for father and mother were at home
alone. Prayer meeting Wednesday
evening Lecture 128 Psm.
Friday 12 Lizzie brought over a
letter from brother John, thanks
be to God for Preserving my brother
in midst of so many dangers, may
his life still be precious in thy
sight. O let his soul live, and it
shall praise thee; and let thy
judgements be helpful unto him.
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June 19th Sisters Martha & Mary
and her two youngest children
were here. I miss Annie more when
we are together. I think I can hear
her making her truthful observations
about what we are speaking of. Often
during the day my heart & eyes were
down in the resting place of the
quiet sleeper. dear pleasant Sister
this was indeed a bitter cup to me.
28. Sister Mary was over this Evening
a small Box has been sent by brother
John containing some books taken
on the battle field. & some pipes
by the men of his regiment
while they were at Cheat Mountain
they are made of very hard wood.
He also sent his likeness. He looks
to be in very good health. I am
very thankful that he is still alive
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June 22. Afternoon Sermon on
Particular Providence from Luke
12. 6-7 Are not five sparrows sold
for two farthings & not one of them is
forgotten before God. But even the
very hairs of your head are all num-
bered Fear not, therefore: ye are
of more value than many sparrows
June 29 Sermon on the Character
of Samuel 1st Samuel 1.28
Therefore also I have lent him to
The Lord; as long as he liveth he
shall be lent to the Lord. And he
worshipped the Lord there.
July 6 Lecture on 3rd chap of John
our Pastor having omitted the 2nd
chap.
Afternoon Sermon on the Assinsion
of Christ God is gone up with a
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shout.
Sabbath July 13th not able to attend
Church this morning having had an
attack of the flux last week It seems
I need stroke upon stroke. In August
last year small biles
commenced coming on my limbs
I had them for six weeks. Then I
was clear until November from
that until the last of April I
was seldom without one or more
such a time of pulticing & bathing
suffering & bearing as I had. Some
of them had as many as five holes
in them & half a dozen like small
(pon, pore) round them. Yet I only
lost one Sabbath from church,
that day my right foot & anckl
were so swelled that I could not
put on a shoe
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The trouble of our Country appears
to be on the increase 16 00 000
more even have been called for
3 00. 000 volunters the others to be drafted
Last Sabbath Rev. J. B. Clark of
Alleghany called a congregational meeting
to be held on Tuesday Evening the fifth
of August to diliberate on the state of the
country & enquire what they could do
for her. He opened by Prayer & stated
the object of the meeting. Some one
enquired if they could rais a company
would he go as capt. He replied he
would if his people were willing.
These proceedings were announced in
Wednesday morning’s papers. When I came
home from market William had been
down at the Office & came back to
know I was willing he should enlist.
I said no. He urged the matter
Said he might be drafted. Then
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then he would have to go wherever he
put, now he had the chance of
going with our excellent officer &
in a good company. It was finally
agreed to leave it to our Pastor.
Willie went down but did not see
him. After prayer meeting in the
evening he asked him. His reply
was I cannot say for you not to go
Willie
The next morning at 8 o’clock
Willies name was written on the list
of Comp. A Clark Infantry being
the 78 name. That company was
filled during the day & another
started. and then a third which
was also filled.
And now instead of going back to
Westminster at the first of September
my child will leave me to encounter
all the fatigue & peril of a Soldiers
life.
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Friday 8th I went down to look for
army Shirts. J. B. Clark & his men
marched up fifth st. the B. Building
to be sworn in to their countries
service. Oh! how the sight made
my heart ache. my Willie oh; my
Willie.
Monday they have commenced
to drill three times a day
Friday 15th Willie came home at
noon saying they expected to leave
to night. I went down street with
him we bought a Bible some
thread and needels a pockethandkerchif
a camp knife a (comss) & some
provision for the journey.
The Regiment assembled on the
commons at six and after waiting
until near 9 for marching orders
a dispatch was read counter manding
the order for their departure indifinitely
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Sabbath 17th Aug. /62
My dear Willie got cleaned up & looks
like himself once more. We had
but one sermon. In the afternoon
we went to Manchester and united
with them in the observance of the
Lord’s Supper. The 23 Psalm was
the last sung to the tune zerak.
nine young men are going in
the same Regt. with Wm. out of
this congregation. This is the last
time we shall worship God together
as a family for a long time per-
haps forever.
Wednesday 19 at four Oclock
this afternoon the cars shoved
off bearing many a treasure,
the Band playing Marching
Along. I was standing at the
corner of wood
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Those Southern Graves.
Those southern graves, those southern graves!
In which our northern heros lie
No watching willow o’er them waves
No monument of marbel craves
The notice of the passer-by.
Not even a summer’s grass has grown
Above each sacred silent bed
Marked by the small, grey mounds above
To the great busy world unknown,
They sleep the sleep of death.
But there are hearts fond hearts that yearn
To kneel beside those mounds of clay,
Griefs first sad lesson to unlearn,
And shed the up-pent tears which burn,
And slowly eat the heart away.
The father’s pride, the mothers joy,
Unwatched, unwept there mouldering lies,
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But ah: stern death cannot destroy
The true life of the soldier-boy,
Who dies that freedom may not die.
In coming years those graves shall be
Forever sacred in our sight
Bright heaven lights of Liberty
Strong sentinels to guard the free.
Great altars unto Truth and Right.
John 4th whosoever drinketh of the water
that I shall give him, shall never thirst,
but the water that I shall give him, shall
be in him a well of water springing up
into everlasting life.
The spirit operates Powerfully
constantly, results contentment
peace joy. Prayer is ordinarily
the means of obtaining the Spirits
influence.
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On Monday morning Sep. 29. at 6
Oclock Cousin Wm. Church closed
his earthly career. aged 34 years
16 days His wife and two little
boys will move to Salem as soon
as she can get ready.
How uncertain is life! How often
death comes when & where least
expected. Our prosperity is dist-
royed. Joy & gladness flee away,
and only grief & sadness remain.
Oct. 26
Good news from Willie.
on the (blank space) of this month he was on
guard at the Head Quarters of Brig.
genl. Briggs. While pacing his
beat one of the Officers came out
and enquired if they had any good
penmen in their Regiment
Will said they had plenty of
them, after some further con-
versation He told him to come
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in. An order was given him to
copy, his name & company were
taken down and he was dismissed.
The next morning he was detached
by an order from Col. Clark to be
Clerk at Head quarters
He need not now take part in
a battle unless he wished to do so
but I think most likely he would
However I am thankful that he
has got the situation for he had
not slept under a tent for four
weeks their Reg. being entirely
without. Thus the Lord is following
the boy with lovingkindness and
tender Mercy. I hope He has a delight
in him, & that in due time he will
bring him into the ministry,
& make him the honored
instrument of saving souls.
This is all my desire concerning
Willie.
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Oct. Wednesday 29 /62
20 min. after 8 Oclock this
evening our Pastor took his
departure for the Holy Land.
Expecting to be absent six months
Rev. W. J. Reed Pastor of Seventh
St. Church was married to night.
Sab. Nov. 2 Dr. Gracy text
Sec. Peter 1. 10
Wherefore the rather brethren
give dilligence to make your
calling & election sure for if ye
do these things ye shall never
fall. Afternoon student, text
Sol. Song 5. 16, this is my friend
Nov. 9th at Mr. Boices owing
to the death of their little Sidney
one of our little S. School Schoolers
their youngest child 18 months
old was buried yesterday week.
Mr. Calhoun preached in afternoon
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from Jer. 9. 24 Let him glorieth
glory in this, that he understandeth
& knoweth me, that I am the Lord
which exercise lovingkindness,
judgement, and righteousness in
the earth: for in these things I delight
saith the Lord.
Nov 16 Mr. Sankey preached in
the morning. Text My presence shall
go with thee and I will give the rest.
Ex 33. 14 having a sore throat he did
not he could not preach in the afternoon
so we had none Mr. Hanlin went to
see Mr. Walker.
Tuesday 18 dear Sister Annie 9 months
dead to day. alas my Sister how pleasant
you were in life. Your death has withered
my heart. Joy and I must henceforth be
strangers.
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Friday 21 Johny has a very bad cold &
cough I took him home to day but he
would not stay so I brought him home
and took him to Dr. Dake
Sab. 29 Staid at home with Johny
in the morning Mr. Marks preached
all day afternoon text
we spend our years as a tale that is
told.
Time passes. I have been
affraid even to mention Christmas
for I thought we could not
possibly meet without our dear
Annie. On Wednesday evening
Mary came up and said we
must go down, that while we
had cause for sorrow there was
also cause for thankfulness. So
long as Father & Mother were spared
so we went but it was a sad day.
to me. Everything she had
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said and done last Christmas
came before me. Oh: my oh; my
my precious sister
Jan. First .63
A beautiful day. Mr. Hanlin went to see
old Mrs. Gray who has been sick for a long
time. He was also at Mr. Boals, some of their
have scarlet fever. I was at home all
day.
Jan. 18th Communion Sabbath
Mrs. Gray died on Friday & was buried
to day. Our Communion Sabbath in Oct.
was the last time she was out. She
took sick the next week & has been
ever since. She has entered into rest
in a good old age being in her 80th
year. Her son with whom she lived
is a good man & I think she was very
comfortable. This was vert cold day
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Tuesday March 17th 1863,
Dr. Dake and wife up from Salem on
buisness. Spent part of the afternoon
with them at their old home now the
residence of his brother C. M. Dake. Dear
Cousin Emma Church is not getting
better very little hope is now entertained
of her recovery. Called to enquire for
Mrs. Galbreath. Then went to Mrs. Jacksons
war has made her a widow & seven
children orphans.
19 Mr. Hanlin went to woods Run
to night to see a sick person.
Friday 27th Mr. Hanlin went to
Mr. Bells found him very low. Home about
eleven. 28 Mr. Bell died this morning
at 9 Oclock Mr. Hanlin is there again tonight
he has been going once or twice a week
for nearly 3 months. He died in peace
leaving his wife and two little children
to the care of God. Sabbath 29 had a
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very good prayer meeting at Mr. Bells
Mr. Hanlin presided. Mr. Seatl & Floyd
led in prayer, poor woman she sat by
the corp and wept as if her heart
would break. It rained everyday
last week but Friday. Saturday evening
after dark the rain ceased & it blew
up cold this has been I think the
coldest day this winter.
Tuesday 31st started to go to woods
run gave it up on account of the
cold called at Mrs. Johnsons on fifth &
also at David Warden’s. The children
in both families have been sick but
are better. Friday 3rd April
Mary Fleming spent the Afternoon
with us. Sabbath Fifth text Jer.
13.21 what wilt thou say when
he shall punish thee Dr. Kerr.
No preaching in the afternoon.
Mr. Hanlin went to see Mrs. Galbreath
at Woods Run. Home after 8 Oclock
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Read prayed & sang twice with her,
the 23 & part of the 24th Psalm,
left her very weak but very restless.
Monday morning word was sent that
She was dead. Went down & staid till
evening. Went down on Tuesday
morning & staid until near evening.
There was no other person there when
they came from the funeral & I did
not like to leave them alone.
She always expressed her willingness
to die and we hope it was gain to her
she leaves a husband & seven children.
We are living we are acting
In a grand eventful time
To be living to be acting
Is sublime
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April 18th
Fourteen months to day. and yet
I mourn her bitterly as at first.
My longing to meet her again
is increased rather than diminished
by laps of time.
Where are ye, oh! priceless dead.
From my sight forever fled,
Speechless, pale, beneath the pall,
Hearing not though loud I call,
Said a voice in heaven all.
Monday
April 20th James J. Walker in the
23rd year of his age, nine months this
young friend was confined to the (illegible word; Inese)
We had visited him & felt a deep
interest in him. He had been down
stairs on Thursday, he awoke at three
and asked for a drink. Lay quiet until
four the called his nurse again,
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She increased the light & saw that
the change had come. He was conscious
of it & rising on his elbow & clasping
his hands firmly together he exclaimed
God be merciful to me a sinner, Rev.
Mr. McClean who had been very kind
& faithful to him was sent for and
in a few moments stood at his bed-
side He repeated the 23 psalm &
other comforting passages to him
prayed for him & stood by him to
the last. I thought of the sweet
lines. We sang to sooth him- hopeless was
the song; We prayed to strengthen him-
he grew not strong. Yes the time will
come to us all when nothing will be sufficient
to comfort cheer or sustain, but the arm
of God & the presence of Christ in the
soul. Calm and beautiful was the coffined
clay. The Spirit I think has entered
into rest.
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Surely it is true “death reigns”
On Saturday morning June 6th 1863
Cousin Emma was called to another and
we hope a better world, Eight months
and seven days since she was left a
widow with two little sones. Since
that a little daughter has been added
to the number. Aged 29 years. Not
seven years since she was a bride
Suchis life, A vapor that appeareth
for a little time and then vanishes
away.
June 19th 1863 we had a heavy
hail storm to day accompainied
with thunder & lightning. Our
trees were nearly stripped of leaves,
the hail lay in quantities until
evening
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June 22 Monday our Pastor got
home to day after an absence of 8
months lacking one week.
Wed. Evening 24 we had a very full
prayer meeting. We are all glad that
he is home & he is just as glad to be
home. We will be well fed once more.
August 23rd text Heb. 6th 17. 18
Wherein God, willing more abundant-
ly to show unto the heir of promise
the immutability of his council con-
firmed it by an oath;
That by two immutable things in which
it was impossible for God to be, we
might have a strong correlation
who have fled for refuge to lay hold
upon the hope set before us.
This is Willies last Sabbath at
home for some time,
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Sep 6th 1863
2 Sam. 12. 9 Thou art the man.
Prov. He that walketh with wise men shall
be wise.
Sep 13. Heb. 4th 2nd the word Preached did
not Profit them, not being mixed with
faith in them that heard it.
John 16. 8 He will convince the world of sin.
Sep 20th Lecture on fifth chap 2 Kings
by Col. Clark. I Wealth and high posi-
tion do not prevent afflictions
2 benefit of early religious instruction.
3 Our unwillingness to receive instruction
or benefit from on beneath us, he would
not go to the poor profit but to the King
4 We can only be cured of sin in the way
God has appointed
Parents should be careful to secure for
their children an interest in the heavenly
inheritance and leave their temporal
condition in the hands of a wise and kind
heavenly Father.
No service in the afternoon.
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Thursday Sep 24 1863
Father came up to day with a letter form
dear brother John. It is just five months
since we last heard from him and we
had almost ceased to hope that he was
alive. Blessed be God for his preserving
care. Blessed be his name for his goodness
and mercy to him and to us in this
respect. I felt as if I could not be thank-
ful enough for this news, I wanted to be or
do whatever God required. I even wished
that could quit fretting about my dear
Annie lest I should offend one who was
so much better to us than we deserved.
27. text Zachariah 13. 8. 9.
And it shall come to pass, that in all the
land, saith the Lord, two parts therein shall
be cut off, and die; but the third shall be
left therein.
And I will bring the third part through
the fire, and will refine them as silver
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is refined, and will try them as gold
is tried: they shall call on my name,
and I will hear them; I will say, it is
my people; and they shall say, the
Lord is my God.
Wm. Preetly. And may know the love of
Christ
Oct. 4 And the things that thou hast
heard of me among witnesses, the same com-
mit thou to faithful men, who shall be able
to teach others also. The above is the text from
which the Dr. preached on the subject of
Sabbath Schools.
Oct. 11. Psm. 42. 4 When I remember these
things I pour out my soul in me: for I had
gone with the multitude, I went with them
to the house of God, with the voice of joy
& praise, with a multitude that kept
holy day. The company a man loves to be with
and the places he loves to frequent prove his
character.
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Psm. 66. 16. Come & hear, all ye that fear God
& I will declare what he hath done for my soul.
Malachi. 3. 14 It is vain to serve God & what
profit is it that we have kept his ordinances
and that we have walked mournfully before the Lord
of hosts.
1st Nature of practical Godliness to serve God.
To keep his ordinance.
To walk mournfully before him.
2 who are they who declare it is unprofitable
to serve God?
3 It is not vain to serve God.
Rom. 7. 9. I was alive without the
law once, but when the commandment
came sin revived & I died, Oct 18.
Thursday 22. Mr. Boyd and herein do I
exercise myself to have always a conscience
void of offence towards God and towards man
Acts 24. 16.
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Dickey.
Yea, and all that will live godly in Christ
Jesus shall suffer persecution. 2 Tim 3. 12
Marks.
Judges 1st 6. 7 And Adonibezek fled;
and they pursued him, & caught him, & cut off
his thumbs and his great toes,
And Adonibezek said Threescore and ten
kings, having their thumbs and their great
toes cut off gathered their meat under my
table, as I have done, so God hath requited
me, subject retribution. Oct 24
Sab. Oct. 25 Heb. 4. 15 For we have
not a high priest which cannot be
touched with the feelings of our infirm-
ities; but was in all points tempted like
as we are yet without sin. His sympathy
is perpetual. Perfection can only be attained by
suffering. God’s love is omnipotent. It can and
will do just what is best for his children
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Marks
The effectual fervent prayer of a
righteous man availeth much.
Lecture John 4 14.
Heb 13. 15. 16 By him therefore let us offer the
sacrifice of praise to God continually, that is the
fruit of our lips, giving thanks to his name.
But to do good & to communicate forget not:
for with such sacrifices God is well pleased.
Nov 1st.
Nov 8th He saved others himself he cannot
save.
2nd Tim 4. 15 Meditate upon these things
together with 39 Psm. 3 v While I mused
the fire burned. 1 what is religious meditation
thought and study engaged in for practical
purposes. 2 Suitable lines, sickness night
watches, Sabbath day. Subjects of Meditation
1 The merciful and gracious Character of God
2 Redemption by Christ. 3 our own Character
and spiritual state.
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Helps to Meditation Knowledge especially Bible
2 carefully exclude all other thoughts. | Knowledge
3 Pray for help.
Benefits 1 (crossed out words)
The truth on which we meditate become
enwrought as were in our minds
2 These truths acquire a greater power
over our minds. 3 Meditation becomes easier
4 by so doing we more fully realize our own
Christianity.
Rev. I counsel thee to by of me gold tried
in the fire, that thou mayest be rich; & white
rainment, that thou mayest be clothed; and
that the shame of thy nakedness do not appear;
and anoint thine eyes with eyesalve, that
thou mayest see.
Thanksgiving Thursday 26 Nov
Lecture on 1 Sam. 1 chap. collection
taken up for Christian Commission
amounting to 1. 91, 11, Our Pastor Lectured
in the evening for the benefit of our S. School
Subject His visit to Sinai.
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Nov 29th Daniel 12. first 3 verses
Afternoon Lecture on first 6 verses of
Deuteronomy by Mr. Earng of Benia
Mrs. Frazier the widow of our lamento
missionary and Aunt Fairnan were
at our Church.
Dec. 6 Gen 18. From 23rd verse
72 Psm. 16 There shall be an hand-
ful of corn in the earth upon the tops
of the Mountains; the fruit thereof
shall shake like Lebanon: and they
of the city shall flourish like grass of the
earth.
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Sat. 19 Dec
Saturday Father came up to tell us
a letter had been recd. Form brother John
written since the battle at Missionary
Ridge. It was a fearful battle He says it is
higher and steeper than Seminary Hill
on Allegheny. His captain was killed.
then the command devolved on him. He
fell the next charge but was not hurt
the ball struck his blanket thus God saved
him again, we are very thankful for his
preservation
Dec. 20 Lecture on Luke 2 chap 8- 14
Afternoon
